Turkey Challenge Week 1

(11.1.12) - 185.2
(11.2.12) - 184.8
(11.3.12) - 183.6
(11.4.12) - 183.8
(11.5.12) - 182.8
(11.6.12) - 183.2
(11.7.12) - 182.2
Week 1 loss - 3.6

20.6 lbs in 10 weeks

I am super happy about how much weight I have lost in the last 10 weeks, but I may be even more excited about having stayed consistently on my diet for 10 weeks. Every dieter knows that it is easy to start, but more challenging to stick with it. I feel that at this point it has become a habit and even possibly the start of a lifestyle change. I tried on some new suits yesterday (I have a bunch of job interviews) and I was very happy with the body that I am beginning to see in the mirror. I also weight in each morning in just a bra and undies. I'm starting to not fear the mirror. I even saw a picture taken of me a couple days ago that I don't hate. Normally, I only like ones that are beauty shots, but this is a full body pic. I couldn't be more excited about how far I have come and the prospects of how far I can go.

I guess it is time to start a new challenge and set a new goal. Thanksgiving is 3 weeks from tomorrow. I want  to be in the 170's buy then, so my goal is 179.8 on Thanksgiving day for a total of 6 lbs in 3 weeks. My average weekly loss isn't that high, so I will have to step up my game to reach this goal. I will be happy if I get anywhere close.

Final Week Weigh-In's

This is the last week of my Halloween Challenge. I have changed my goal from the original once already, but since I have surpassed that I am going to change it again. I am hoping to reach 20 lbs lost in 10 weeks. That would be another 1.4 this week and put me at 186.4.

(10.25.12) -187.0
(10.29.12) - 186.4
(10.30.12) - 187.0
(10.31.12) - 185.8
Week 10 loss - 2.0
Total Loss - 20.6

Jobs, Jobs, Jobs

I'm not really sure how I feel about what is going on in the job search now. I guess resigned is the best way to describe it. Tomorrow I will accept the job offer I have received and set a starting date of Dec 3rd. I have an interview on Nov 8th & 9th and hopefully will get one for Nov 12th as well. I am very excited about those two job opportunities, but it is also good to have this one as a back up. Best case scenario  I find out that I got the graduate program job and I will start in either Dec or Jan. Worst case scenario, I will not get either of the Siemens jobs and I will move down south and have a well paying job while I look for something more suited to my future goals. That's not a terrible position to be in. I will just have to wait out November and see where my life takes me.

Conflicted

It is the middle of the night and I am lying in bed crying. I don't want to take this job. The thought of running out of time and being forced to take this job terrifies me. Why did I even apply for it?  Why did I call back and take the interview after purposefully missing the call to set up the interview twice? Didn't I know from the beginning that I don't want this job? I don't think it is the right job and it feels like giving up, moving backwards, and short changing myself. Am I really not confident that I can get a good job that is at least a start towards my goals? How can I doubt myself this much? I feel like it would be dumb to turn down a job offer without a back up, but it also seems dumb to accept a job when the thought of it has made me cry at least twice in the last 36 hours. I am just so conflicted. I know what I want. Why shouldn't I fight to let myself have that? Isn't it worth the risk? What if I don't get it? Now all I feel is anxious and sad.

Weeks 9 Weigh-In's

(10.18.12) - *mid-day weigh* 191.0
(10.19.12) - 190.6
(10.20.12) - 189.2
(10.21.12) - *mid-day weigh* 187.8
(10.22.12) - 188.6
(10.23.12) - 187.6
(10.24.12) - 187.8
Week 9 loss - 4.6
Total loss so far - 18.6

First 8 Weeks Weight Loss Summary

Week 1 loss - 3.4
Week 2 loss - 1.4
Week 3 loss - 1.6
Week 4 loss - 2.8
Week 5 loss - 1.4
Week 6 loss - 1.2
Week 7 loss - 0.0
Week 8 loss - 2.2
Average Weekly loss - 1.75

Since I am not on track to meet my original goal and that goal is now unattainable in the given time, I am going to set a new goal. Using that average weekly loss, it is reasonable to try to lose 3.2 lbs in the next two weeks. That will also be challenging. That would put me at 189.8 on Halloween. That would also mean a loss of over 17 lbs in 10 weeks which is very respectable.

I won't be able to check in for the next two days because I am heading south for an interview. I'll stay on my diet, but exercise is unlikely.

Hey, Scale! Follow My Lead.

I have been back on track with my diet and exercise since Monday, but the scale seems to be ignoring that fact. I have crept up almost half a pound, but that has to be because I am expecting Aunt Flo to arrive in a day or two. I know that I always gain weight right before TOM, but it is frustrating because I don't want to wait for the delayed satisfaction. I really just want to see some results NOW. I guess I will have to be patient and hope to see the beginnings of a whoosh by Sunday or Monday... fingers crossed.

Week 8 Weigh In's

First 7 weeks loss - 11.8
(10.11.12) - 194.8
(10.13.12) - 195.0
(10.14.12) - 194.0 (no longer obese BMI!)
(10.15.12) - 194.2 (TOM)
(10.16.12) - 193.4
(10.17.12) - 192.4
Week 8 loss - 2.2