Morning Weigh in and a Couple Goals

This morning I hopped on the scale and was happy that it went down. Now it just has to do that a million more times. :-P

I decided to make myself a couple goals. These are some small goals that I can work towards without the whole daunting idea of wanting to lose 60 lbs. They are listed below with my weigh in.

Today is going to be a great day. I have a bunch of work to do, but I am going to make time to get to the gym and get my workout in.

(3.28.2012) 207
(3.29.2012) 205.6

Mini Goal #1: 199.8 (Onederland)
Mini Goal #2: 196.6 (5% lost)
Mini Goal #3: 194 (BMI 29.9)
Mini Goal #4: 186.2 (10% lost) - by graduation

Here we go again...

This has become a familiar tune, yet here I am again. It's never comforting to know that you are back at the beginning, but at the very least I am at least pointed in the right direction. I know where I need to go and I am back on track. I currently have two goals set. My first goal is to be 100% on plan everyday for a week. This week will be daily workouts and a tight diet. All fruits, veggies, and dairy plus LOTS of water. Next Wednesday morning I will be weighing in to see how much I have lost in my first week. My second goal is to run a 5k by graduation. I will be doing the C25K to achieve this second goal.

This is my all-time high. After today, I hope I will never be here again.

(3.28.12) 207 lbs
I have stayed on diet today and got a morning workout in at the gym. This evening I did a little extra running the steps in my apartment building a couple times and a short jog/walk outside.

Dresses!

After a little surfing around on the internet I discovered that I really want to wear more dresses. I don't have many at all - and I normally think I don't look very good in them. I am going to work towards wearing them more often and hopefully have a slimmer figure for them as well. As it gets colder, I can only think how I would love to rock a cute little dress, some leggings, and boots. I will have to find a pair of leggings that I like. I recently moved from sunny Florida to chilly NY. I don't have the cute winter wardrobe yet, so I will have to build it. I am going to wait till it gets a little cooler and hopefully I'm a little slimmer, to invest, but I hope I can pull off sleek and not bulky winter wear. I love the look of boots, yet will have to decide how to best wear them. I'll have to find some nice (not scary) skinny jeans. Hmmm...

Yay for clothes as motivation!

A Full Fridge and a Hot Oven

I hopped on the scale mid-day today and to my surprise the numbers started with a 202. I am very happy with the weight that is coming off so quickly in this phase. I know it is probably a lot of water weight and due to just starting the diet, but I don't feel deprived, I eat all the time, and it's good food! I completely ran out of grapes and berries, so I went to the store again today to stock up for the rest of phase 1. I just love having some fresh fruit and yogurt in the mornings for breakfast. I have to get up a little earlier to make time to eat, but so far it has been worth it. Right now I have some sweet potato fries cooking in the oven. Yum! This weekend is the Apple Harvest Festival in the Commons and as my first fall in the Big Apple I think I will have to find some good for me apple-y goodies.

:P

Staying Strong

Well, it has been 3 whole days. That may not seem like a lot but it is a victory. When I woke up Monday morning and started this journey, I weighed myself. 205.6. I have no idea how it got to that. This morning I was 204.4. In only 2 days I lost 1.2 lbs. I think about cheating, but I resist. I think I can make it through phase 1. After that I get to add back in meat. This is going to be great and very do-able.

I did the math today and I am technically obese according to BMI. I will just be 'overweight' at 194. That will be my first goal. 194 by Halloween. Ill keep you updated.

:P

A New Beginning - Part Duex

Well, my last beginning came and went as fast as they all do. I am not proud of that fact, and I was going to create a new blog, but then decided that trying to forget the past is the opposite of what I need to do. Everything I said in those posts were true and a periodic reminder of them could pose helpful in the long run.

My new 'new beginning' began today. It is the first day of the Fat Smash Diet - a 90 day plan in 4 phases. It seems like perfect timing since in 90 days it will be Dec. 24 - Christmas Eve. What great motivation. Phase 1 is 9 days long and is considered a detox. I am pretty much only allow fruits and veggies with the exception of a couple egg whites, low fat yogurt and some milk for proteins. Along with the eating plan, I am supposed to do 30 min of exercise 5 times each week and a 20-25 min walk after dinner. I can handle that. For exercise today I did the 30 day shred. I'm not sure if I will be doing that for all 30 days, but it is a nice, quick, efficient workout. The food has been great so far. I stocked up on all my favorite fruits and veggies. Hopefully this won't be too hard. Off to a great start. I am going to make it through this first phase and only keep moving forward. At this point I have nothing to lose and everything to gain from gaining nothing and losing a lot.

:P

Temptation and Regret

Why do I always manage to sabatage my own efforts? I have heard arguments that your body will crave what it needs, but what about when it craves what it doesn't need or what it is used to? Tonight, I made a bad decision, followed by some good ones. While I did do a good job of improving my decisions and moving on, I don't want to live making reactionary choices, but rather the right choice the first time.

Tonight, for some reason I can't figure out now, I bought a frozen pizza and TWO packs of different little debbie treats. I ate half the box of one, a quarter to a third of the other and half the pizza. I realized that I was too full after the second slice of pizza, but I forced myself to finish it and another slice. This doesn't make sense to me. I did great during the day, to distroy my efforts in the evening. I threw out the remainder of everything. I don't want to be tempted with it tomorrow, so now it is in the trash. To try to help the situation, I am going to do an extra workout tomorrow and not give up on this lifestyle.

I know I can do this, but I don't know why I find it so hard. Why is it that even when I know what the right decision is, I make the wrong one?

What are my motivations for chaging my life? I want to be more confident and accepted. I think I have a chance to start over in grad school. I want to be more popular. I want to be loved.

Do I think that someone must be skinny to have any of those? No. So, why do I feel that losing weight will assist me? I know that it is good for me to lose weight. I tell myself I don't have that much to lose, but I want to lose about 45-50 lbs. Thats a lot. Do I think it is not achievable? No. Do I think I can do it with hardwork? Yes.

Maybe when I figure out my true motivations, it will become easier...