Temptation In The Air

I am doing great and feeling great on my diet. I really want to see the '2' at the front of my weight to go away and never come back. I hate when people, who know what you are trying to do, knowingly do something that could sabotage your progress and goals. My sister tonight made cookies. Warm cookies cooking in the oven and filling the whole house (which I live in too) with the delicious smell. I definitely want one. I normally would eat one. I don't.

She too is trying to lose weight, but she isn't actually losing. I don't understand how she can make cookies when she knows how hard I am trying, but then I realize that her eating cookies in her own house has nothing to do with me. She can do whatever she wants. That being said, while she doesn't have to think about about, I wish she would. Maybe ask me before she cooks them if it will bother me. Not that I want her to have to ask permission to do things in her own house - I really don't. I just want her to think about me. I have been feeling recently that she hasn't gotten me as well as she used to and that she doesn't care as much about having an actively close relationship. I know that is likely just my perception, but I guess the cookies got me thinking about it. Venting done. Still glad I didn't eat a cookie.

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Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.  - Unknown

Wonderful Weekend

I had just a wonderful weekend beach adventure with my mother, aunt, and sister. I managed to behave myself the entire time with one exception. At most places I was able to order a salad of some sort with some blackened grilled chicken on top. I had a wrap at one place that I just ate the inside and not the wrap portion. It was exquisite. I had some of the best food on that trip. I also remained strong and didn't snack any of the couple times that the others indulged. The only meal that I wish could have gone a little lighter was a delicious ravioli dinner at a fancy Italian place. I wanted to order a salad, but they didn't have any dressing that I liked, so that was no longer an option. My next preference was to order a chicken dish and veggies but no pasta. Again, nothing that I liked. Alas, I caved and ordered a delectable ravioli dish and I quite enjoyed it.

When I left, I weighed myself earlier in the morning than I normally would and it was after a high sodium day. I was 207-something. I had to sneak a peek when I got home to see how I am doing. It was the evening (so I should be higher than my morning weigh ins) and I had recently had a soda. I was only 206. I am looking forward to my weigh in tomorrow morning. I hope I can keep up this diet with the current ease that the vacation had. I loved what I was eating, I wasn't hungry, and it, for the most part, didn't feel difficult.

Feelin' good. :)

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If you wish to grow thinner, diminish your dinner. - H.S. Leigh

Good Mornin - Blah Day

I started out the day well. I cut a bunch of watermelon and planned a great repeat of yesterday. I job searched and found a number of great opportunities to apply to. I even relaxed a little by watching a movie. I let the day slip away from me by eating too many crackers (with too much sodium), had a bowl of yummy chili when I wasn't hungry, and topped it all off with a couple spoons of peanut butter. I don't know why I let myself sabotage the day like this. After I realized that I was only hurting myself, I decided to not make the day any worse. I did a tiny workout at night to feel a little better. I guess we will see in the morning how it really affected the scale. I will have to stay on plan over the weekend. Yay for beach trip!!!

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Stumbling is not falling. ~ Portuguese Proverb

Good Mornin! Good Mornin!

I saw Singing in the Rain last night on the big screen and keep hearing the wonderful chorus of songs in my head. That is always a good way to start the morning. Another good way is to see a smaller number on the scale than the day before. I lost 0.8 lbs. For a single day, I would say that is pretty good work. Today will be a little harder, so I will have to make sure to stay on track food wise. I don't have a car today (mine is at the shop getting painted) so I can't go to the gym. Instead I am going to try The 30 Day Shred. Today isn't going to be nearly as hard as this weekend. I am going on a girls weekend beach trip with my mom, aunt, and sister. I am very excited, but I will have to find some way to workout and watch what I eat closely. I will see if the hotel has a gym or maybe do laps in the pool. I also need to try to plan to take fruit with me. I also need to cut my watermelon today - that would make a good snack for today.

Halloween Challenge Weigh-ins
(8.22.2012) - 206.4
(8.23.2012) - 205.6

Goal #1 - (10.31.2012) - 181.4

Being challenged in life is inevitable, being defeated is optional.  - a friend's Facebook page

End of Day 1

I did well today. I stayed on plan with my food and went to the gym. I managed to run just over three laps straight without walking. That is by far the most I have been able to run in a long time. I started walking at the first turn on the 4th lap. I am kicking myself now because while my brain told me I was too tired, my lungs and legs were fine. I hate the mental part of working out. I need to learn to push myself harder. I did the bike after that. A girl got on the bike next to mine at the same time. After 10 minutes she stopped and I had gone a mile further than her. I know, I know. I shouldn't compare myself to someone else or judge people at the gym but I was proud and I worked a little harder for the rest of that workout. And I am a very nice person, but let's be honest - I judge people at the gym just like everyone else. Sorry, Planet Fitness.

My roommate today showed me her 'fat picture.' She has lost 50 lbs. I don't have any of those because I am at (about 5 lbs less than) m highest weight. I can't let this continue. I must lose the weight now. We shall see tomorrow how today paid off. Just got to put one foot in front of the other and do this all again tomorrow.

Every Damn Day. Just Do It.  - Nike shirt I saw at the gym today

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Surprising Morning

As promised, I weighed in when I got up this morning. To my surprise and delight the scale said 206.4 - about a pound and a half lower than I have been hovering as of late. I have been trying to make a lifestyle change so maybe some of it is working. I'll continue to update you with my progress each day. I am going to stick with my goal of 25 lbs by Halloween (10 weeks), which makes my goal weight on that spooky day 181.4 lbs. That sounds super crazy to me right now, but I know its not impossible. Secretly I will be hoping to reach 180 or 179.8, but that will not be the official goal. I am going to have to find an awesome Halloween costume to show off my hard work and reward myself with some frivolity. The plan for today is to only eat fruits and veggies in any quantity I desire, workout (either at the gym or to a Jillian DVD), finish organizing my room/closet, and hopefully look for some jobs in the process.

(8.22.2012) 206.4

Goal #1 - 10.31.2012 - 181.4

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Just Keep Swimming...

Since my last post I have done a lot in my life I have graduated with my Masters degree and moved back to Florida. Unfortunately, all of my weight has moved back with me and I am still hovering around the same numbers that I was in March. I am taking another go at it. Tomorrow is ten weeks to Halloween. That seems prime timing to make a goal and plenty of time to achieve it. I am going all in and setting a steep goal. I would like to lose 25 lbs in 10 weeks. I'll weigh in tomorrow morning to see what the actual numbers are. Also, I am going to try to update here frequently. It is nice to have a record and motivating too. I know I have a long  way to go and I don't really have a number in mind for where I want to end. I really just want to be healthy and happy in my body. It would be nice to fit into some jeans from high school. That should be somewhere around the 150's. Today I reorganized my closet and cleaned out my closet from my parents house. I have a lot of clothes from smaller times that I can not fit into but would love to wear again. I kept a lot of them as motivation. I am ready to do this and I can't wait to see some results. Until tomorrow...

Do the thing that you don't think you can do. ~Eleanor Roosevelt via Stacy London